Intro

 Hi! 

I'm a recent immigrant from Canada to the USA. There's a lot going on in my life, I just want a place to vent and work through some of what I am dealing with.

One of my goals for this is to update it weekly, as part of a routine I think would be good for my mental health. I really don't care if this is seen by anyone else, I just am dealing with a lot atm. If you see this, hello, welcome, nice to meet you.

Some of these posts are going to get pretty personal with some information on my mental health struggles and physical health concerns. If you read this and figure out who I am, please keep it to yourself. Being confronted about some of the things I intend to write here will kill this and I won't want to write anymore (the same way my blog I wrote as a teenager died when my sister decided to mock me about some of the things I wrote there.).

Anyway, a quick summary of what I am currently facing:

After a meeting with a new psychiatrist, I learned that the things I am struggling with mentally are likely from Borderline Personality Disorder, not ADHD as I was previously told.

I am going to a gynecologist next week for a colposcopy, because they found something on a pap smear that they are pretty sure isn't cancer, but it might be and the gyno wants to make sure.

I've been feeling ill for a really long time, some of the symptoms centered around my period but others involving not being able to eat due to nausea and not being able to do things that I love doing because I am exhausted and feeling unwell all the time. 

I also am new(ish) stepmom to a boy who is facing more challenges than any kid should have to deal with, which is leading to him lashing out in ways that are hurtful, focused on me because his mother doesn't like me. I'm not sure why, but it might have something to do with the fact that she feels threatened by me in some way. 


Anyway, it's a lot of things going on, some are my monkeys to deal with, some aren't, but they are all in my circus and wrecking things, so I need somewhere to vent. 

This blog isn't going to be exclusively about these things, rather just things that I am interested in or feel like talking about. Chances are, those things will be mentioned from time to time, so I thought a reader might want some more context.

Anyway, that's all for now. It's currently Saturday, March 22, so my goal is to have a first post here before the 30th (giving myself a week).

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